So these three individuals didn’t get my passive aggressive attempts at ignoring them, so now I will have to be up front, and I always come off looking like a nut-job, or incredibly mean—and I can be VERY mean when and if I want to, it’s not pretty. And I will say this, I am not a tactful as I once was because I don’t feel as emotionally stable as I used to be, and yes, that’s the post-pregnancy hormones talking and ruling my life some days.

And then there is the part of me that doesn’t want to do this other website anymore because I’m just tired of it, and my priorities have changed in the 6 ½ years since I started it. I just don’t have the passion for it, nor do I have the desire to moderate the discussion boards and smooth over the countless hurt feelings of people in other countries (who I must say are hyper-sensitive most of the time.)

But here is the real problem, these people just want to suggest things and leave me to deal with their suggestions, which I’m sure are fabulous. Would any of them be willing to actually sit down and take over the management of this whole thing? And finally, if I did turn over the reigns I know things would be changed around and then people would say things like: “Oh this is so much better, that other girl’s website just sucked!” That would really hurt my feelings, because I designed and built this baby by my self, and paid for it all by my self and collected all of the information and wrote all the pages and so on. It’s not fancy but it’s functional, and it is my vision.

I just don’t know what to do other than; I’m not even going to respond to the requests for a few days. I’m going to lay low and see if the storm passes and then gather my thoughts and then act, which is what I don’t know. Oh, lookie, lookie...idecisive blonde on isle four.

And on a totally other note, and please put this in the “What the?” category. The lady that was harassing me last week at church about my favorite hymn sent me a card this week. She wished me a happy birthday(!!!!), and hoped that my summer off of teaching was going well (apparently she’s been out of the loop), and this is the kicker...she hoped that my eternal perspectives were in order. I didn’t realize that out of whack eternal perspectives included not wanting a big deal to be made by people I know in name only about my birthday. Believe me, if she only knew how “checked” my eternal perspectives have been this year she would leave me alone.