I turned them down.

I know, pick yourself up off the floor. I turned them down, because it was the right thing to do, and not because I gave all of my stuff away last year either. I have my reasons and I know they are the right reasons.

Lorriane understood my reasons and was very supportive of my decision. I’m so glad she is my friend.

I’m surprised at myself. A year or two ago I would have jumped on this chance like a starving person on a steak. I guess I’m not that person anymore. I don’t know if this means I’ve grown up, or that I’m more mature in my thinking or wiser or what.

I called my husband afterwards and told him the situation. He asked if I was sure, because he didn’t care if I go teach again. He said he support me in what ever I wanted. No, I didn’t want to be full time again, but it’s nice to know he gives me the latitude I need to feel comfortable and supported and the space I need to not feel smothered.